Takyah Bace La ~Buang Mase je: Juz a bunch of thoughts.Internship???uwaa~

waweee~I'm home,for about a week now. well,its d best thing in ma life for being home after all. I never like the outside world so much though I love...~WRONG!!! I am deeply,madly in LOVE wif travelling.

Then, why am I afraid of the outside world? Not exactly afraid, juz unfamiliar with the surroundings with a bunch of unknown people walking around me everyday.. I'm shy!!~ I dun like the feelings of being trapped within socialized entity where I couldn't be my 'real' self entirely. Only my family and relatives knew me well enough.

and why am I afraid of these kind of surroundings? Okay then, here's the reason. Its because I'm such a jerk and untrue when I met new people. I tend to adapt to the surroundings by becoming who the wanted me to be. For example, if I'm in a group of wealthy people, I'll walk with my chins up and act like I'm looking down on every people I met.

Another situation that I encounter is when I'm in a group of mature people, I'll act like a know-it-all jerk that would bring down those people. Then, when I'm in class, I'll act like I didn't know a thing since I'm surrounded with educated people which I like this situation the most since I could learn from them a lot..Yup,I mean A LOT!! these guys are the best as I could be myself most of the time.yeay!!!me likey~

And next week, I'll be in a group of working people which I am feeling totally uncomfortable right now since I've never been there before. DIZZY~DIZZY~DIZZY~